Monday, March 31, 2008
2dae was my angriest dae in my lyf..(haha..i mean 2dae alwaez make me angry..evrytym..)..1stly wen i gt 2 noe tht sue n company shoo hafsah..i ws damn angry wit em..dey evn make hafsah felt leftout..i ws pity wit her..i n her talk bout thgs wich bout her feelings n my feelings..i told her hw i felt wen i ws left alone last 2 yrs..n i advise her on ths probs..coz wat she felt rite nw is wat i felt last 2 yrs..ths pain n sufferings r unforgettable n i wil alwaes left drop of tears wenvr i remember it..i told her,"dun ever gif up on studies wen u faced ths kind of prob..focus on em..coz i noe u cn du it.." (i cant realli remember wat i told her..so called lyk tht huh..) ..i dun wan hafsah being treated lyk wat i ws being treated last 2 yrs..(slave,pest..etc..)..
Damn sue n company...dey make hafsah slave..i feel lyk wanna punch em 1 by 1..take turn..q up first..
btw..wen i,nad,as n waj were tired of being push ard by sue, we finalli left her..we form our own gp..so called anti-sue..sue ws alone..no frens..then came hafsah,whu seems 2 leave waj juz 4 e sake of sue's loneliness..soon hafsah n sue bcame closer..suddenly, (eh mcm aku story telling lak..haha) sue had more frens,zabeen,meizheng,kaikeng n so on..(wich i dun care 2 noe)..she finalli make hafsah her maid..bossy ard..4 quite a while..hafsah scared of her..(wich i dunno y..)..sue n company evn make fun of hafsah..(btw..du u tink she's a toy?..or r u e one?..coz u guys tink she dun hav feelings juz lyk a toy or u urself dun hav feelins for ur fucking attitude 2wards her???) ..hafsah then mix wit us..we al felt pity..
then wen np tym..damn 4 whu-i-nt-tel-e-name hit my rifle (wich she knew tht she hits me but dun wan 2 apologize..) n e tip of e rifle poke my jaws..ouch! thts hurt..its painful..i ws angry..
then..sir announce we had training 4 e whole wk straight..(eh! dun u tink ppl must rest??du u tink we r statue..nvr rest!..fyi..e onli tym i'm free is frm 4-6..its difficult 4 me 2 study at nite..again gt np..after going home..my whole body felt very tired..cant du hw or study..then nite tym alreadi..nid 2 hav sum sleep..dun u tink thts fair..du u tink i'm free?..i nvr sleep in e afternn..nvr had a full rest..my face ws lyk zombie..eyelid black..pale face..i tink i look exactly lyk babiah..haiyo..
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3/31/2008 07:44:00 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Nadia: she's my best fren..best fren eva..she's cute..i call her pau..cute rite?..haha..she is kind harted gal..we've been frens since 4 yrs..even we've known each other 4 few yrs..i 've chose e correct person..but sumtyms,wen she had prob,she lyk 2 keep it 2 herself..i wanna halp her..im willing 2..
msg 4 her:
i'll halp u no matter wat..u r my bestfren so..u r importnt 2 me alot..u help me lots..so its my turn 2 pay ur deeds..but i hope u wun break ur promise..remember? u promise 2 tel me evry single prob..u wun keep it as a secret..wen u cry, i felt guilty..i feel tht i was e one whu make u cry..onli waj noe bout ths..n jannah..dun wori if u dun wan 2 bebankn aku juz 4 tellin yr prob..i cn put my probs aside n help u instead..koz u r special 2 me as a bestfren..k?Wajihah: she's my close fren..i cn tel althgh we've been known 4 2 yrs..she's kuat iman..religious gal..she's friendly n kind..i call her mak..koz she behaves lyk mum..but a hyper mak..she's cute in her heights..wif a curly spiral hair..haha..but i felt pity 4 her condition..i dun wan 2 loose her..hrp tuhan panjangkn umur nye..amin...she's a special fren too..
msg 4 her:
i hope i hav money to blanja u..koz u had blanja me lots..one day i blanja u..hope u accept it..promise me k?plss....n hope i cn repay yr gd deeds 2wards me..remember ths..u r special 2 me...n so do nadia n asryna..
Asryna:she's also my close fren..she's preetie..cute (eh jgn kembang tau)..joker..supporting wit my jokes..so do nad n waj..haha..she's my partner in klas..i cn c shes frendly..n kind..but so sad..she loves the word R..(juz joking tau..haha)..we hav e same mind concept wen joking..if u sit wit her u'll nvr stop laughing..haha..so du waj..haha
msg 4 her:
i've told u my wish tht ive made since young..4 almost 10 yrs i waited 4 my wish 2 cum true..i wish n wish n wish..until i've found u..then i realise u r e one tht exactly wat i wish 4..koz in my lyf..nvr had a fren whu cn withstand my jokes n pranks..all they cld say is "tk baek3.."n scold me..im glad i mit u..thnks..u guys r special 2 me..as a fren only..(nanti farhan jealous)..haha..i'll try my bes 2 help u guys..eh klu aku nk blanja krg..jgn tolak eh..aku da ckp dulu..krg tolak..krg bkn kwn aku..get it..hahahahax..kidding la..sape la tknk kwn krg..krg baek n frendly..im lucky 2 fren wit u guys..(jgn kembang tau,krg?)..btw..frens 4eva??? FRENS 4EVA!!!
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3/18/2008 06:49:00 PM
4gt e past & keep movin 4ward.. itz imptnt if we keep movin 4ward koz thts wat lyf is.. our future is ahead of us & we cant gif up.. mayb nw our lyf is in pain but wat if our future is e opp of our lyf nw.. we cn brighten our future blievin in ourselves tht we cn du it..we wil succeed.. thts wat i've told my syg...heehe.. but we cant juz put away our past..its our big memory 2 remind ourselves whu we r,where we r frm & whu r our famili..our parents had guide us on e rite path..but we cant alwaez rely on their guidance.. we had 2 choose by ourself which is rite or wrong..frm there,ths path lead us 2 our achievemnts,our dreams if we r on e rite path.. if nt,we wil b lost on track 4eva if we gifup in findin e rite path..its e same s we gifup lyf.. we muznt 4get our past..instead u learn frm it.. lyk my mum said "learn ur mistakes..dun du e same old mistakes s it wil ruin ur lyf again..in ur lyf there r few chances but u cant waste it 4 e same mistakes..wen u hav no chances left, u ask ppl 4 it..but u get ur chances but they wil hav less trust on u.." Remember: theres a bright future ahead of u if only u put ur tinkin brain 2 work & hav a hart 2 succeed..al e bez 4 ya exams guys..esp..those takin o level & psle.. u r born 4 being a successful person..im sure u dun wan 2 born being a loser.. :P
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3/18/2008 06:20:00 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
true enough..i noe..many of u say i lyke talkin much but seriously..i'm a mute gal..esp..at home..i onli talk much wen i'm argueing wit ali,my bro..other than tht..e most talkative in my family is faizal..n mayb u surprised wen u noe faizal talk much..koz in sch..he seems 2 b quiet..i felt lyke if i was mute at sch..i will nt hav many frens n ppl around me will b tinkin..hey y fahana alwaez keep quiet??..is she mute or wat???..n to me..if i kept quiet,ppl will get bored n they wuld sae i dun lyke entertainin' em..mayb they wuld sae i'm such a boring guy..no entainmt,no funny,no words cuming frm her mouth..
i guess u wuld b surprised reading ths koz it doesnt related 2 me at all..i'm sorie if i'm being noisy all ths while..but i try my best 2 entertain my frens..telling jokes..all of those kinds..my funny character seems 2 entertain my frens..mayb i shuld shhh a little bit koz i'm scared if u dun lyke me being noisy..but i'm scared too if u also dun lyke me being mute all e tyme..
i'm feeling a bit weird..in klaz..wen i tel em my stories,tel em jokes..i feel tht i hav sumone 2 talk 2..usualie i dun hav companion..even at home..weird rite??..i guess mayb they seem 2 be entertained wit my stories..but mayb 2 my thoughts, they felt disturbed wit my noisy character..i dunno which is true..but wen i'm quiet,they seem 2 ask me whether i'm ok or nt..sumtymes they predict it correctly..sumtymes wen i'm quiet,which means i'm tryin' 2 control my anger or im in a badmood..but sumtymes im tired,serious or try nt 2 b noisy..shhh myself..
B.T.W...
if u dun lyke my character,juz tel me,ok frens?
so tht i'll noe wat u hate bout my character & i'll try my very best 2 change it juz 4 u guys..
i dun wan anyone to hate me juz bcoz of my ugly character..
or if u dun wan to..then tel me my mistakes..
i'll try to correct it & stop making e same mistakes..
but...my character of disturbing ppl,i cant change it kos its my fixed character....if u tel me tht u dislyke me disturbin' u..then i'll stop it..hehe :P
People cant spot their own mistakes..it is u whu cn spot it..dun juz kept it 2 yrself if u spot it..tel him/her nicely n he/she will definitely correct it & wuldnt repeat it..only a fool whu already noe his/her mistakes but wuld wanna repeat it again.. hehe
PEACE my frens..miz u guys..hope we cn mit again..
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3/11/2008 02:46:00 PM
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Sch hrs mmg seronok skali..pt umah i'm bored 2 death..aku asyik kene mara..hidup aku tk tenang di umah..blaja pn susah..buat keje umah kene paksa..aku ngh sakit2, pening kepala pon aku terpaksa uat keje..lyfe unfair..i mean my bro live in peaceful lyfe eventhgh we live in e same house..tu mgkn psl aku anak sulung..pd aku sulung ke tk..sbgi anak..kasih ibubapa harus dibagi sama rata..ni tk..tk fair..unfair!
i wanna live in sch wit my frens..they make me cheerup..they make me hapie..i dun regard em as frens but my sis (since i dun hav any sis..) they r nw my sis..i luv em (asryna,waj,nad,suriani,hanisah,hani & more..) if i hurt their feelings..i felt guilty in al my lyfe..cos they were my sis..i'm reallie sorie guys if i hurt ur feelings..
everytyme i tink of my parents' unfairly treats towards me, tears trickle down my face..i cant resist it..it happen so quickly..my lyfe turn completely opposite..(frm hapie moments to saddest moment)..i have no choice but to commit suicide..cos i felt tht without me, ppl's lyfe bcame happiest include my family lyfe..
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3/01/2008 07:50:00 PM
You already know..
What the PRESENT is..
You already know..
WHERE to find it..
And you already know..
HOW it can make you..
HAPPY & SUCCESSFUL..
You knew it BEST when..
You were YOUNGER..
You have simply FORGOTTEN..
The PRESENT..
Is not the PAST and
It is not the FUTURE..
The PRESENT is..
The PRESENT MOMENT!
The PRESENT is
NOW..
Even in the MOST..
DIFFICULT situations,
When you FOCUS ON..
What is RIGHT..
In the PRESENT MOMENT,
It makes you HAPPIER,
And gives you the NEEDED..
ENERGY & CONFIDENCE..
To DEAL with..
What is WRONG..
It is HARD to..
let GO of the PAST..
If you have NOT learned..
From the PAST..
As SOON as you..
LEARN & LET GO..
you IMPROVE the PRESENT..
Anytime you are..
UNHAPPY in the PRESENT..
or feeling UNSUCCESSFUL,
It is TIME to..
LEARN from the PAST..
or PLAN for the FUTURE..
Look at what HAPPENED..
In the PAST..
LEARN something..
VALUABLE from it..
USE what you learn..
To IMPROVE the PRESENT..
You CANNOT change the PAST..
But you can LEARN from it..
When the SAME situation ARISES,
You CAN do things DIFFERENTLY..
And ENJOY..
A MORE sucessful PRESENT..
NO ONE can predict..
or CONTROL the FUTURE..
However, the MORE you PLAN..
For what you WANT to see HAPPEN,
The LESS anxious you are..
In the PRESENT..
And the MORE the FUTURE..
Is KNOWN to you..
Picture what a WONDERFUL FUTURE..
Would be like..
Create a REALISTIC plan..
To help it HAPPEN..
Put your PLAN into ACTION..
In the PRESENT..
How you respond..
Depends on your PURPOSE..
When you want to be HAPPY..
and more SUCCESSFUL..
It is time to be..
In the PRESENT MOMENT..
When you want the PRESENT..
To be BETTER than the PAST..
It is time to LEARN from the PAST..
When you want the FUTURE..
To be BETTER than the PRESENT..
It is time to PLAN for the FUTURE..
When you LIVE and..
WORK with PURPOSE,
And RESPOND to..
what is IMPORTANT now,
You are MORE able to..
LEAD, MANAGE, SUPPORT,
BEFRIEND, and LOVE..
SUCCESS is becoming who you..
are CAPABLE of BEING..
and PROGRESSIVE towards..
Worthwhile GOALS..
Each of us DEFINES for ourselves..
What is MEANS..
TO be SUCCESSFUL........
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3/01/2008 06:48:00 PM
Nur Fahana ♥
