Thursday, January 8, 2009

thnks guys for ya concern..
ya waj,i gif u double peace on my hart koz u make me realise..
well,to me,REALISE is e most importnt word..
hmm..after wat u said in e phone,i cried..
cried of feeling so guilty to myself & to e others esp. As..
well,i noe As concerned bout me n so do Jan..
thts y they seem to b angry wit me wen they get to noe i wanna do sumthg stupid...
im sorry about ive said long ago..
forgive me,aitesz?
how cn i calm myself down if probs cum after another...
solve one,another cums in..
its like e probs r queueing in front of me,a nvrending Q..
& i,as a admin staff,takes down one by one for eternity life..
i started to panick wen i dunno wat to do...
juz a small tiny mistake & i started to feel very guilty for e rest of my life..
GUILTY is such a strong word for me to place inside myself..
& i cant live in ths world if one of em didnt forgive me...
wat shld i do?
i keep questioning myself...
i cant relaxs myself even Waj told me to...
btw..i gt a big bump at e back of my head,wen i slip & fall..
so Jan & Waj,im sorry if i alwaez forget what i wanna say to u guys..
& u guys feel bored to talk to me..
well its fine wit me..
i have STM easily even its like only a minute ago,after e bump..
SORRY GUYS...kind of being so forgetful..
im so gonna blame e soap spilled in front of my bedrm door...
well,i didnt tell anyone in my house bout it..
so dun u try to tell one of em..pls..dun wan em to worry esp.my dad..
well,c ya soon,Waj,As,Jan,Nad & Haf..mayb on 12th jan..
OMG!!! its 4 more days!!! well,gd luck then..
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